Valentine’s Day should be happy. Being in the service industry only makes you see how much pressure everyone puts on a silly day.

I honestly could care less about it but want to indulge in the child like wonder of the day for my son. But today has only brought tears.

Tears that my son was left out. That he operates on a different level.l. Tears that I and he are inconveniences to seemingly everyone. Tears of a friendship over. Tears of being the bad guy. Tears of losing it. Tears of over reacting. Tears of not speaking up. Tears of being judged and knowing it. Tears of trying to play nice. Tears of caring for those who only care about themselves.

Tears that My child doesn’t speak. Tears of frustration that he can and has but doesn’t. Tears that I only want good for him.

Today sucks.